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It’s 2024. I have taken a back burner approach to most of my social media. I have survived 2023. I have survived my abusive ex partner and the influences of our other shared partner. I will continue to write about the experience. It is how I must cope to live with what had happened to me by their hands. They cheated on me with this kid named Mason, twice. They put their hands on me, most notably when they slapped my glasses so hard off of my face they broke, and when they strangled me twice in the same night. They were and are a raging alcoholic. I left not just the home we got together for my safety, but the town we lived in. The job I had in the area. And the state. I left the entire region, because being in any proximity to South Bend, Indiana, is dangerous to me. Their sister threatened my life with a gun. They threatened my life. Of course I could not stay. I was trying to find safety. I kept quiet about a lot of the abuse, because I was silenced into it. Snippets I would confide to my close friends scared them badly, and made them worry for my safety. They don’t know where I live now. They never will. I will continue to speak out about the physical abuse I suffered. The mental, emotional, and sexual. They want me to be quiet because speaking out against them hurts their percieved reputation, which is all they care about. They don’t care about anything else, especially not their current partner, who I watched them hit, abuse, and cheat on also. I can own up to what I did in that relationship- I spent fuckloads of money we did not have. Financially irresponsible and out of control, yet, I supported the house financially through my money and my parents. I have receipts for that, too. My cashapp tells the story of $17,000 going to them. If you ask them, they would say I cheated on them- which is funny. I did not, what I did was hook up with our shared partner, twice. We were a throuple. Yet, Myracle had so much control over me that they expected me to tell them whenever I had sex with Andy despite that not being discussed before it was a “problem”. I have nightmares every night where they are strangling me again. When they did, they were laughing. Andy watched. Yet, Andy is also so much under their control, that Andy insisted to me after it never happened after. They both conspired to gaslight me into thinking a completely different version of events happened. I thought I was losing my mind. I even got taken to the doctor by Myracle for my “memory issues”. When I went back by myself my doctor asked what that was about. I broke down about the strangling, the hitting, the threats, abuse, and control. My doctor and the subsequent social worker both wanted me to not return without a police escort. Yet, Myracle was ready for that, too. I smoked a lot of weed to cope with life at that time, and Myracle would use the weed in the house against me as to why I could never call for help. I went sober after that and in the process of fleeing the house. For my safety. I look back on it and sometimes have to coax myself out of panic attacks or flashbacks. They wanted to kill me. They talk about me “accepting responsibiltiy”, but at the end of the day, responsibility to them would mean I don’t exist anymore, to stop burdening them. I like to live for myself, and for spite. Never will I crumple for Myracle again. I live for love and peace. Myracle never loved me, and they tried to take my peace. I am reclaiming it. They do not get to get away with hitting me, abusing me, and hurting me. It’s 2024. I’m holding my abusers accountable in my own way. #update #vikkomode #vikkovlog #abuse #abuseawareness #abusesurvivor #domesticabuseawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #domesticviolencesurvivor

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From my #drafts, but here are some goat babies I get to adore and care for now! Goat content #goat #goats #sassfarms #vikkomode #vikkovlog

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Another one from my #drafts ! Chicken time :) #chicken #chickens #sassfarms #farm #vikkomode #vikkovlog