elzani

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the whole reason why I started this account, the whole reason why I even began posting myself online and as some say “embarrassing myself” is just so no one ever feels alone. I remember being in the depths of my ED, wondering what was wrong with me and wishing to be anyone but myself, or to not be here so my family won’t have such a huge burden anymore… I got better and life was good again - SO GOOD! But then I suffered with depression from late 2023, and it honestly hit me like a truck and I was actually in shock as I just assumed I’d been through the worst mental illness of my life.. turns out I hadn’t. This was awful, so different to the ED, but such a huge depth of all consuming emotion and so much emotion at all but at the same time just emptiness? I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I didn’t feel like me. But who was ‘me’ anyway? Just like the ED, the days were endless and I didn’t see a way out. But there was. There always was, and there always is! So now in bad periods of life, I just remind myself that when there is a dip in life it just means a peak is coming. A beautiful view from the biggest mountain you can imagine is on its way. And it’s incredibly beautiful! And I am strong enough to keep going, day by day, just as I have before. You have got through every bad day of your life so far. Use that as evidence. If anything else, just look forward to the sunrise tomorrow, a hug from your Mum, a funny TikTok sent from your sister, your dog’s wagging tail as you come downstairs in the morning. Keep going. The world deserves you! You were put here to experience. Unfortunately that is the good and the bad. But in each, we learn how to feel and appreciate, and how to become who we can be! Lots of love ❤️ #healing #selflove #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness

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you just got to keep going 🩷 #mentalhealth #selflove #healing #recoveryjourney

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don’t believe anyone who doubts you!!! No matter how far down at rock bottom you are, you can always go up! #healing #selflove #mentalhealth #triathlon #recovery