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(edit) I missed a word don’t mind this I was js testing out a poem that’s heavily inspired full poem ! dear god, I whisper softly under the covers why ? gently because some small part of me is still scared to upset you why do you refill a girls hairspray but not help me brush my teeth? why do you give fulfil prisoners hunger but let the homeless suffer? why do you help others but let the rest die ? I know your heart is pure, kind and beautiful but why can’t you help me ? because im so tired so very tired I hope i sleep and dream one thats permanent and maybe somewhere I could see my mom reassure me and finally hear that everything’s gonna be fine my soon to be savior my not yet savior but soon i'll be saved savior right? dear God, I start again i miss you I missed when you made christmas feel magical when I smiled at the sun knowing you’re up there among the clouds watching over me but it’s getting harder for me to believe oh how I miss you god even tho I couldn’t bring my frightened heart to believe something so mighty I’m so very sorry for being angry with you judging you from the side I’m so sorry for asking so much maybe I just need to believe that somewhere beneath this exhaustion there is still a piece of me worth saving and maybe, god you haven’t left me dear god, I mumbled beneath my breath one last time I’ll be as gentle as I can be with this please let me be loved again I don't want to spend the rest of my life trying to find love in places that hurt me i don’t want to call someone family and still be afraid afraid of getting yelled at afraid of getting hit because im so tired very tired of making you up just so i can believe something good is waiting for me and even if i still did back then #poem #targetaudience #originalpoem #thoughts #God