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Someone messaged me yesterday talking about how they’d made a video but that their inner voice was telling them they were doing it for the attention and inflating their ego. They asked me what I thought, and it’s this: the patriarchy wants us small, submissive, and controllable. That voice, isn’t your voice, but the voice that was used to socialize you to remain small in every way. Posting on social media is absolutely an attention grab but not in the way one might think. Dancing on social media began as an experiment for me to be perceived because at that time in my life I’d nearly disappeared into all the roles that had been thrust upon me as a woman. Early on, my incredibly wise 80 year old neighbor asked me, “By whom is it that you wish to be perceived?” And the answer was ME. So yes, posting is for attention, but it’s for me to pay attention TO ME. After a lifetime of putting everyone else’s needs first, this is the only space that I occupy that is solely for me, by me, about me, and 100% FOR me. Sure, it’s cool that it’s resonating with others, but if they all went away tomorrow I’d still be doing this and hitting that post button because I am worthy of taking up space…(and spoiler alert) SO ARE YOU. So, if you’re in doubt, do the dance and hit the button, because every time you put yourself out there you’re giving permission to others to do the same. We are worthy of the lives we are living and why the hell not? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Now, let’s dance✨ #loveyourself #beyourself #youmatter #dance #love

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Guess what? I’m making my portfolio available in a series of limited run prints over the next six weeks. This week’s release is called “Garden Dreams” and that’s ONLY the beginning. Tuesday, October 27th I’ll be releasing my most favorite series called Women Taking Up Space. In the coming weeks there will be stickers, handmade items, holiday themed prints and so much more. There’s a link in my bio for my online shop called The Aviary on my website at lisahaightstudio.com Thanks for taking a look and supporting my small business! #loveyourself #beyourself #youmatter #dance #love

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I love this song by Angie McMahon called Letting Go. As I made this video this morning I felt free and happy and glad I didn’t fall over when I did that wee spin. I was all self congratulatory about “letting things go” and healing and moving right along into the newest and brightest version of myself…AND THEN, as I was stirring my post video coffee my mind went to the person I’ve got the biggest beef with. This person has destroyed lives, devastated families, and has never experienced any consequences for their actions. For a solid two minutes I ranted in the quiet of my studio and while I looked out the window trying to find the peace I’d just had minutes earlier. I once again told the trees everything this person has done. Letting go isn’t about forgiveness (although that may be part of it), or moving on (although that happens too), but instead, letting go is about noticing those feelings come forward, holding them for as long as they need holding, then opening my hands to release them. I will never not be devastated by the actions of this one person. I will always be angry, upset, and sad from the result of their negligence, narcissism, and apathy, but I also don’t have to grasp it every moment of every day. Like everything, letting go is a practice and a skill that’s developed over time. I will do it again and again and again and again, and then one day, I’ll walk on into another life…and I’ll haunt her. 😏 What can I say? Learning the art of letting go is a process, not a destination. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Anyway, let’s dance✨ #loveyourself #beyourself #youmatter #dance #love