LiminalCore

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WitchTok is a fundamentalist Christian sect. They just sandpapered off the barcodes. I grew up in an emanationalist religion. We worshipped the moon, sun and stars. Abrahamic religion was a minority with no institutional power where I lived. Most people could go their entire lives without meeting a Catholic. Which means when I watch WitchTok I see something a lot of people raised in the west can't see as clearly. What they are doing is Protestant prayer. The hand movements, the personal conversational relationship with the deity, the expectation of being individually known and heard. That is Jesus. That has always been Jesus. Aphrodite is not your close personal friend and confidant. You give offerings to the Gods to convince them to spare you. You don't catch up with them about your week. They have also managed to incorporate every toxic element of evangelical Christianity while rejecting all the good parts. Purity culture. Shunning. Moral frameworks that shift with the wind. High Priestesses doing the exact same thing as televangelists. Immortality spells that will cure your terminal cancer. Eleven thousand dollars please. At least Christianity pretends it's for the betterment of society. Full rant on YouTube. Link in bio. #fyp #fyp #politica #culture #witchtok #paganism #religious #christiantiktok #spirituality #philosophy

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This week I saw video footage of my daughter, my husband, and my best friend for the first time in years. And my house. If you watch my YouTube you know how much I loved that house. There is a difference between remembering something and actually remembering it. Semantic memory versus episodic. I have always had photos. Seeing them move was something else entirely. There was joy at having them back for a moment. And then grief at remembering how completely they are gone. And a strange tenderness toward the version of me on screen who didn't know what was coming and was just having an ordinary day. I am contractually not permitted to receive outside psychological support. That is a condition of the research program that funds my life. I understand the clinical reasoning. I even agree with it as a medical professional. Also I have a raging middle ear infection which doesn't make this week any easier. lol. Full video on YouTube. Link in bio.#fyp #childloss #grief #mentalhealth #trauma #healing #philosophy -

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I am contractually prohibited from receiving outside psychological support. I am the subject of an N-of-one research program. They pay my bills, my car, my entire life. In exchange, I cannot see a counsellor or psychologist without permission from the program lead. He doesn't grant it. And as a medical professional I actually understand his reasoning. That doesn't make it easier. This week I saw video footage of my daughter. My husband. My best friend, who I haven't seen in over eleven years. My house. There is a difference between remembering something and REMEMBERING something. Semantic memory versus episodic. I always had photos. Film is different. I don't know what to do with any of it. There is nowhere official to put it. So I'm putting it here. Full video on YouTube. Link in bio. #fyp #grief #childloss #trauma #mentalhealth #philosophy #healing